10 random things people may not know about me...

so..... i was thinking today.....

as i continue to journey through life and go through new experiences, and overcome challenges in my life, i've discovered some characteristics that i may have either put it behind my brain and never realized... or developed over the years, and i wanted to share that with you.. so here it is...

1) I'm a constant seeker of kindness...

(about 3 years ago, i've made a conscious effort to be a better person. To be kind to others in ALL circumstances are hard, but i strive to do my best...)

2)I don't know why, but I put up a tough exterior.

( why do i do that? i don't know... people think i'm sooo tough and so strong... sometimes i want to scream out that i need someone to hold me..)

3)I'm clueless about my heritage 

( this is something i need to work on... I was born in seoul, korea.. and grew up in hawaii all my life.. because i don't have a strong relationship with my parents, i don't really know about being korean. i wish i knew the culture and the language at least... so i really need to work on that..BUT i do know that I LOVE korean food~~~ hey, that's a start!)

4) FEAR drives me and breaks me

(I've been leading a life as a dancer for 11 years now.. and i love it. and i happen to be good at it. it feels natural and it feels good to me. it feels good to express myself that way.. but i've always wanted to be a singer ever since i was little...  but FEAR is my enemy.. it tells me i'm not good enough... so FEAR drives me to prove that i am good enough and more. i've recently started working on this project and it feels amazing!!! i can't wait to release!)

5)I love L.A.

( i moved here when i was 19 full of hope and drive, and no naive!!!  and i hated it. i was soooo lonely and i wasnt prepared. so after about a year, i ended up moving back home to hawaii. since then, my mind's been back here... always.... i was never fully happy... so i moved back to L.A. in 2007. Guess what? i love it!! i understand a little more about myself and where i want to head in life.. i love being around creative people and they really inspire me.. and what better place than L.A. to be around creativity, right?!!!

6)i love PRINCE! i really do... 

( he is on a different level of creativity. he is so interesting to me.. i always wonder what is going on inside his head...... and his music...  come on!!)

7) I wish i had the characteristics of being myself 100% of the time!

(This bothers me a lot!!! WTF?! oh and when i'm around someone i really like.... forget about it..... after hanging out with that person, i walk away feeling ," i swear i'm really fun!! "

i hate that...... if you know the cure to this.... please tell me how!)

8)i like to watch sad movies and cry my eyes out.. and then i feel so much better...

i do this often..lol

9)i love staying home!!!

( i love going out and having fun, but most of the time, i just wanna stay in with some takeout food and a good movie... like.....80% of the time... this is what i do)

10)i really love my friends...

(my golden friends are amazing... i don't really let people into my life easily.. so when i make friends, i'm really careful, and i take my sweet time. I am so greatful for my friends and i can't live without them... i am truly blessed.)